For: The Institute Of Contemporary And Emerging Worship Studies, St. Stephen’s University, Essentials Blue Online Worship Theology Course with Dan Wilt (ICEWS, eb 08)
My studies this week have focused on the nature of worship. Let me first say, I find it very interesting how many definitions of worship exist in the teachings of church leaders, theologians, and professors. It amazes me how convincing many of them are and how many of them I have exclusively prescribed to over the years. N.T. Write immediately focuses on creation/the creation and our relationship to Him, Don Williams is all about the King and our relationship to Him, John Wimber focused on our relational connection in worship. Each teacher balances their thesis out with each others points, but it’s good to see that each of them have an anchor and a starting point. My starting point is still a bit undeveloped. Stay Tuned.
I thought it might be good for me to review my corporate worship history as I conclude this Essentials Blue course.
My first worship experiences were in the Presbyterian Church (USA). As a youngster I sang in the children’s choir, performing was probably the best way to get me to engage in worship since my personality leaned that way. The next church was a PCA Presbyterian Church where I was mentored by the worship leader and began to understand what was happening. Still my definition of worship had only something to do with Sunday mornings and a general sense musicality. My understanding of worship was merely formed by my experience, not scripture. I look back at the lyrics in the hymns and I recognize that I had not experienced God like those hymn writers had. My culture at the time was communicating through electric guitars and screaming. This was not that. The worship experience was narrating the Story, but it was not engaging my heart, mind, and body in the Story (1).
I have a deep appreciation for what this time did and I cast no blame on anyone, I realize now that I was a threshold and God was going to use the former to inform and inspire the latter.
At the same time I was engaged in a weekly traditional service with hymns and responsive readings I was involved in a movement called Walk to Emmaus (also Tres Deas etc…). This was a precursor to a more charismatic worship experience focusing on campfire songs. I noticed immediately that these songs had a very relational aspect to them and encouraged us to touch each other (“hug another neck, hug a neck next to ya”). . The theology and biblical basis for the songs was very weak, but they did a great service to excite me about God as relational and close. This season and these “cheesy” songs really ushered me into a deeper, enduring relationship with God.
As I left for college, immediately (almost from one Sunday to the next) I participated in my first modern worship experiences at a Vineyard Church. The first thing I noticed was a band: drums, bass, guitars, and volume! I loved music and this music spoke to me. This experience was engaging my heart, kind of like the camp songs, but it seemed more serious and pressing. For the first time in my life my body was engaging with worship and there was significant work being done in my spirit. The Holy Spirit was more real and close to me than at any other time in my corporate worship life. This felt more personal and reflective.
It’s been 13 years since that first Vineyard church experience to now; I might expound on those years in a future post knowing that the shifts are not as dramatic, but significant nonetheless. In review I am gaining respect for my Presbyterian roots. In that place of community worship I learned how to sing, read music, and perform with a group. There was a great sense of family to what we did. I am deeply grateful that the bulk of treasured hymns were stored into my soul, as I will use them for the rest of my life. Likewise, I am thankful for the modern worship experience engaging my heart and connecting me with God the Father. My desire to create and sing found a home here and I love that this is my current expression to God. It’s really cool to be at a historical threshold of church music/worship transformation and to be able to shape it’s local expression in our church.
(1) Dan Wilt, Essentials Worship Theology – The Nature Of Worship, pg. 42